Dancing on the Moon

Meister Eckhart said, "If the only prayer you ever say in your entire life is 'thank you', it will be enough."

It is not.

As I launch my memoir, Dancing on the Moon: The Non-Ordinary Life I Never Saw Coming, A Spiritual Memoir, my heart is spilling out an ecstatic cry of gratitude. Yet, I'm acutely aware . . . what 'thank you' is big enough, wide enough, deep enough, when I've been made to shine like moonlight in a dark sky? What 'thank you' is adequate enough to lay at the feet of the Mystery, living well beyond my understanding, yet is more real to me than all I know?

None.

But words are all I have. So, I will most humbly say, 'thank you' to my Beloved God and pray my story will serve some greater good of which I certainly may not know. And to all who may read, I pray our hearts will meet. For even as the details of our stories differ, we come to recognize our common struggles and triumphs. In the telling, we find and know one another.

And it is always enough.

I've asked myself why I felt compelled to write a memoir. I tell my story to offer hope, share inspiration, and offer possibility. I share to offer an example of how you can start out largely alone and emotionally impoverished, desperate to overcome a debilitating condition, to one day be brought to the edge of all you've known, to face a terrifying abyss where the only choice is to step. But, where you thought you'd find instant death, you find life – a kind of soft landing onto the hand of God – and life as you've never known it. And soon you find that unseen hand guiding you in every area of your life. And, in the end, it becomes your life. Simply, God is now the one you love most.

This is my story. May it serve your journey in ways only you may recognize. If so, my 'thank you' may just be enough.

Stephanie Rutt